Wednesday, December 20, 2006

hais...i felt so terrible for these few days...wad had happen??
im so lost...did i do someting wrong??wad makes her nt reply to me...feeling so terrible..has been losing my sleep..had been tinking all nights...where did i did wrong to her??Am i too straightforward? if yes,i sincerely apologise and knock my head...i dun sound so emo as u tink..jus like u dun feel so well...me too!!!


To:you

I'm really so sorry for wat i had did withour knowing ur feelings...but i know dat i shld give u more time and not make your life so miserable...all these take time..i know..just dat u have to give me a chance to be your fren again...u asked me to call u bt i did bt it was too late...i was in malaysia at dat time....i had been feeling so sucky and i confirmed this is the longest blog dat i had posted so far....maybe u are tinking of him...bt nvm i will let u decide everyting for urself...im nt a person who will force ppl to do tings...

i may understand u in one another but i really dun understand u in another part of ur mind...im really confused for the 1st time...really really hope to have another chance to be ur fren and not let u disappear so suddenly in front of me...i will feel so terrible...at least tell me my fault and i will change for you..or u dun wish me to be hurt more????by nt replying to me is far far more hurting to me...felt like needles poking my heart...sent more den 10 sms oso wun get reply...asked somebody listen to call and nt calling me back....been telling lies...and i dun like ppl to tell lies..gonna do someting to save me...

i oso dun wish all these tings to affect my life,cca and studies...if u really dun wish me to lose all my life...really really pls talk to me...dun leave so quiet and suddenly...i felt like being shot by silencer...i noe u r going for a dinner tonite...jus enjoy...hope u will read my entries...understand how i feel...not only u feel so sucky...u mus understand ppl too...nt everybody feel like the way u tink...u may hurt pple in one way or another..hope u really understand...reply to me fast


Asking myself all these questions all of the sudden....kept stoning when im too free...and almost cried when i heard all those jay chou sad sad song..cant concentrate on doing campfire...felt like dying dying dying...going on cruise tonite...i doubt i have my fun..kept tinking and waiting for her to reply all my tons of sms....wad had happen???this is the 1st time dat i have this kind of ting bordering me....Am i nuts??have i turned crazy????i hope i am ...seriously last time dun feel all these...so terrible...

end of everyting for u to know....pls reply to me asap when u see this...hope really hope

i like can scold ppl when they disturb me when im tinking of all my faults..my faults my faults!!!u r everyting rite...im the one doing wrong...bt i duno where im wrong...been tinking so pessimistic...hais...the 1st time and hope for the last time i felt this maybe i had dropped so deep down the sea cos of you..i had so wishful tinking...yeas...im wrong..so sorry!!!!!!i dun tink i nid to accept such punishment from god and u ...not ever!!nt even say bye bye and bonvoyage to me...i doubt dat u had such a black heart...cos u can tink of someone for 2 months plus...nt giving ppl chance and nt urself a chance...hope u really reply to me...i got autoroam can receive ur sms anitime...will wait for u to reply...will on my fone 24/7...jus to wait for ur reply...


gtg nw...wish for a better tmr..

how i wished dat u will come to me earlier, why should i be waiting for u for so long?? x=
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